Saturday, July 30, 2011

Trek! :)

This last week I went on the trek with my stake. I didn’t get to go last time so I decided to go this time even though I knew I would be one of the oldest kids there. I was most nervous with what family I would get put with. I lucked out and got an awesome family! I was put with the Mellor’s, Mama Sue and Pa Kevin! They were the best! I had 5 brothers and 3 sisters. I was the big sis and Sterling was the big bro. We loved it! I didn’t know really what to expect since I didn’t go last time but I sure did find out! Whenever my siblings slacked or needed a break, that’s where I stepped in. I did a whole lot of work! My siblings kind of were lazy, not gonna lie. I had a bro who was a big guy and played football. He was the biggest complainer! Haha I felt he could have done a whole lot more of work. But I flippin loved him! He kept our family laughing and having fun! I called him Bubba! I felt bad cause my parents did everything! They cooked, they cleaned, they packed and my siblings did nothing! But my parents never complained! I loved them! The first day was supposed to be the hardest. We definitely trek the most and all but we had A LOT of breaks! It was tough and dirty and a long day! I got “bit” by a snake that day and was blinded. Holy cow, I was blind folded for 3 hours but it felt like all day! My family put me in the front of the wagon! Haha man was that fun! NOT!

 Me and some of my family!!!!



Me my bro Bubba and sister!


                    Me blind folded!


That night was the women’s pull. I was expecting it to be hard, but it was a whole lot harder than I thought! The men went to the top of the hill (back then, that’s when they had to go to battle) to watch us. They all kinda laughed and were like oh yeah!!!! So anyways we started. So…… the girls in my family….. lol well let’s just say that basically me, Hanna, and my Ma did all the work. Yes my two other sisters did help but…. Not really. Our wagon was one of the heaviest. Our ma and pa had cots and we had a wood table and all this stuff that other families didn’t have on their load. We started off and we were doing alright. Well after a bit we started to struggle. And then we struggled even more, and then we were dying! We weren’t even half way to the top! We had wagons behind us on our butts and even they helped give us a push all the time! We even had some captains give us a push once in a while. We were STRUGGLING!! I felt like crying but I didn’t have the energy to even do that. I’m pulling with all my might and instead of thinking of how grateful I was for the boys or think about the pioneers and being grateful, I was seriously thinking about just stopping and quitting. I couldn’t take it anymore! I never wanted to quit more than in my entire life! I was really embarrassed because here I was the older sis and I had to have my little sisters give me encouragement and keep me going.  We FINALLY made it to the top and I honestly don’t know how we did it. We must have had help from Heavenly Father! But here at the top the guys were all lined up and we had to pull the carts through them. I was embarrassed because I was so out of breath, like needed my inhaler breath, and my face was lobster red! I didn’t want them to see me like that. Because I know that they all saw how my family was struggling! But it was nice to be able to actually finish and show them that we could do it! I was amazed though at how many boys were crying and really felt for us! It touched me! I was proud though to show them how tough I was and that I pulled my family through it! Afterward, my ma was crying. She gave all she had and I loved her for it! That was by far the best and most spiritual thing of the trek!


  The boys at the top of the hill waiting for us


Us girls on the women's pull, getting a little help.....
The next day, day two, was not to suppose to be as hard, but let me tell you! It was harder than day one!!!! It was hot and just hard, holy cow! They trails were more sandy and crap! We finally made it to camp and my family got together with another family from our company and we got together and made shelter with them. I loved that family! We had a lot of fun! We got our hair washed by our brothers an man did that feel good! The next day was “Sunday” so we didn’t trek at all. It was nice! We had church and played games and read letters from our family. It was a great day! Night times were the best! We slept with the other family and by the boys and we told stories and laughed all night! Favorite part! Sleeping under the stars was beautiful! I saw my first shooting star ever! In fact I saw a total of 9 shooting stars! It was beautiful!
              Dancing with all the pioneers!

        Getting my hair washed by my brother!

                Playing kissing rugby!!!


The last day was the hottest and felt the longest! But me and my bros made it seem faster cause we told a never ending story and had some awesome bonding time! We finally made it and holy crap was I glad! I look back at the pictures and my teeth look so white because I didn’t realize how constantly filthy we were! It was gross! When I got home I took the longest shower and man did that feel great! During that week I saw a snake, a rat and a lizard! Didn’t like that at all! Haha and I got eaten alive by bug bites! But that week was one of the best weeks and I wish it still could be going on! Oh, and I might add that me and another guy from my company kinda got close and had fun! ;) But anyways, the pioneers must have really bonded with their families and gotten so close! Cause I did and I was only there for 4 days! My appreciation for the pioneers has grown and i am so glad that my ancestors went through that cause they wanted their future generation, me to have the gospel. I am so blessed!


Me and my brothers just pulling along!


                 Going down a steep hill!

          
                                                    Having a jolly ole' time!

Going up a steep hill!!!!


                                                            Relaxing in our shelter!


Me getting carried across "Sweet Waters" by my brother!


Me and my real sis! We finished, we were tired and we were dirty! <3

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Unhappy....

So i just kinda want to vent!!! I'm so sick of being ignored by a certain person! This person and me use to be best friends but then stuff happened and now we're barely hanging on to a friendship. I know this person wants space and all but i'm trying so hard to just be simple friends who talk and hang out every ONCE in a while. Its not like i want to text nonstop everyday and hang out every chance i got. I text once a week to see if this person has any time during the week to do something. I hate when you know they read your text messages but just don't reply. Days later when i confront, stupid excuses are made. REALLY?! But then again maybe i'm holding on to a relationship that i want back but the other person just feels maybe it's better for the both of us to move on.... I just hate losing my old best friend. But i'm trying to be understanding and i feel that i am for the most part. But i don't understand how this person can't just respond and acknowlegde the most simplests things! It makes me feel i'm not worth that. But i don't know what this person is going through and thinking so i'm trying hard not to judge them or make crazy thoughts in my head of why they do what they do. I just need to smile, change my thoughts, and go do something that will make me happy.

Oh and side note....... work and poop!!!! For some odd reason i'm the accident pron one, figures! We took the kids to the public swimming pool and i went to the concessions with some of them and sat down at the table with them. Only thing is...i sat in poop.... HUMAN POOP! Serisouly! And then yesterday, we were playing tree ball which is kinda like ultimate frisbee. I stepped in fresh dog crap. And i mean this was nasty dog poop! They could smell me like 10 feet away! I smealt like poop all day! Gosh my luck is just so great!!! BLAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Monday, July 11, 2011

Friends = Happiness!!!!

So the last couple of days have been so much fun hanging with my friends! Saturday night me and the girlfriends went to Red Robin YUMMMM and had an awesome time with my our awesome waiter Jose!



We then drove around town singing at the top of our lungs!



And then we found this awesome park and played on all night!!!!






I love these girls so much!!!!! We had a ton of fun!

Then today me and Aimee went swimsuit/harry potter shirt shopping and ended up buying matching tiger underware! They are cool and we are cool! haha


Without my friends i dont know what i would do!!!!!

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Facing my Fears!

Most people see me as a blunt crazy outgoing person, which i am. But.... that person is terrified of singing in front of people! I never thought i had a bad voice but i know its not like great! Well my friend Aimee said she was asked to sing in her wards sacrament meeting but she wouldn't do it by herself. So me always just jumping to the gun and making hastily decision, told her i would sing with her. WOW! After i told her that i was like crap! My worst fear! So today we went to practice with the lady that is accompany us and my friend Taylor is also singing with us. Him and Aimee have such great voices and i feel like i sing like crap next to them, but we are doing it! Now her is another shocker....... i have a solo! shut up right!? We all have our own little parts and I'm sure I'm going to wet my pant up there! I'm totally fine singing with other people but by myself!? AHHH! They both said i sounded great and i know I'll do fine. I'm just proud of myself that I'm trying something new and facing a big fear of mine! Whoop Whoop! The song we are singing is below!